Today marks the beginning of Mental Health Awareness Month. Resurrecting my blog today seemed sort of symbolic to me. Find out why…
I haven’t used this domain in over 5 years; I kept it in hopes of one day using it to blog about life. And then, life just got in the way. Or maybe my head got in the way of life. Yeah, that’s probably a better way to put it.
You see, I have some major bipolar tendencies. I’m not using that as an excuse. Rather, I’m finally acknowledging what my reactions are when they manifest. They can really screw with my relationships with other people – friends, family, professional contacts, strangers, you name it. I tend to just kind of “fall off the face of the planet” sometimes. It’s not you–it’s me. Sounds cliche, I know, but it really is the truth. It’s just so easy to get lost in the part of my head that still believes, against all logic, that I’m not deserving (of love, of true friendship, of happiness), and when that happens, I push everyone away. My issues wreak havoc with my work. I know I’m talented and completely capable of producing some amazing things, but my mind plays tricks on me. I end up convinced that I’m just not good enough, and I self-sabotage. The thoughts aren’t rational, and neither are my responses.
Today marks the beginning of Mental Health Awareness Month. I think it’s a wonderful day to resurrect this blog from the ashes, and start anew. Maybe, it will be a more cathartic way to deal with my mental health issues. Perhaps it will help raise awareness and help stop the stigma that surrounds mental illness. Most importantly, though, I hope that my voice reaches someone who needs to know that they aren’t alone.
It took a lot to put this out there. I’m not asking for your pity, or for you to treat me differently. I’m the same person I was before I put myself on blast. What I am asking for is some understanding–not just for me, but for anyone suffering from mental health issues. This isn’t an easy road, and sometimes, we just need someone to remind us that we are enough, we are worthy, we matter, and we are not alone.
If you feel inspired to reach out and seek awareness, or just want to show your support to the mental health community, consider “attending” this event on Facebook: Mental Health Awareness Month (May 2015), and/or “liking” the Never Alone community page on Facebook. Throughout the month of May (and every other day of the year on the Never Alone page), they’ll be sharing information about mental health in general, how to help raise awareness, debunking myths, and more. You can also subscribe to my RSS feed to receive notifications about new blog posts here.